Wonder

I wonder whats to become of me. Now that I can clearly see.


Will I fall and break again.

Vision blurring through the spins
Will I make it on my own. Or live the rest of my life alone.


Will He be there always for me;
Or will he get scared then turn to flee.


Does he really truly love me?
Or is it something that my mind created?
Will I be okay in the end?
Will I live to see around the bend?
Can I survive without their love.


Can I do alone?
The better side of me is coming through
I just wish that it didn't take this to know.


I wish they could see me, or that they cared
I'm so very tired of being scared.


They scarred me for life but they can't see
They should have just loved me for me
Parents should love unconditionally
I'm just afraid that I'll lose everything.


The one I love more than life itself
My brothers and sister
Through all of this hell
I wonder if I can survive
I'm not alone but I feel like I am.


I'm scared of the things that are unseen
I'm scared of never finding me.


I'm scared for my sister and my bestfriend
Will she make it?
Or will she bend.


Will she see that things fall in to place
Or will she give up
Leaving us farther behind
Until she's gone without a trace
I trace the outline of my scars and wonder
If I'll make it that far.


Will I fall back and try again
will I really make it to the end
Can I do this on my own?
Can I survive without them?
I smile and realize those things I cannot see
I just hope it works out peacefully.





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[Random poem of everything that's been happening lately]